… but by being the tip of the spear Ive just taken too much damage for right now. Im sorry for anyone I let down but this constant assault of my character and integrity isnt sustainable mentally or emotionally while Im trying to heal. Maybe if I was feeling a hundred percent I could handle it but I felt like I stepped backwards the past few days and its been extremely tough.
Im hoping I can take a few months away from everything to just work on my health with my new doctor. I just want to say thank you to April, my mom, brother, sister in law and sponsors for standing with me during this whole time. They know all Ive ever wanted to do is help. Im so lucky to have a support group that truly has my back, but I know others don’t have the same luxury and that breaks my heart.
I will be back, and hopefully healthy but its gonna take some time. I love all you good people who care for others too ❤️ thanks for your understanding and support.
Edit: also this was not meant to scare anyone in any way, I love and appreciate all of you and just wanted to share some of the real emotion of what its like to be caught in the crossfire of whats going on in the world.
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